i'm afraid to

i'm afraid to lost him

to lost his smile 

to lost the way he looked at me

to lost his voice

to lost his word

why i afraid to?

because his ex just to much write the sucks things ,that ,i didn't why,i feel she wrote it to him !it just make me ,had a bad feeling .and asks ..

is he read it?

will they going back to be a couple again?

it's always play in my head and make me feel some pain ,i don't know what,i can't describe it anymore .but the pain just make me really-really want to hit her go out from his world .i know,it just heard like i don't believe at him .yaaa,it's because he broke her up not because he doesn't love her again there's some problem ,and he said to me,that was so hard to let her go .i always remember that fuckin word which i can't erase from my head .

i got a bad feeling when i read that stupid girl's posting,it just make me really-really afraid .yaaah,i'm parno .wooo \m/

but,i don't know ,maybe i got jealous on it .but,i don't know.i have not believe him yet .he's not my boyfriend ,my friends said ,almost be mine .but,the fact is ..he is not my BOYFRIEND yet !! --"

yaaah,gue takut ,sumpah !gatau juga kenapa .bener-bener aneh rasa nya .seumur hidup aku suka sama cowok ,aku ngga pernah ngalamin hal kayak gini .kadang gue takut banget begitu baca postingan tuh cewek .abis,dia tuh mengingat hal-hal yang lalu,mendeskripsikan banget kejadian yang pernah dia laluin ,dan bener-bener baik banget cowok itu ke dia .i get jealous enough to that ,bitch yaaa !!! >:(